That Time of Year.

It is officially December. 

Let that sink in for a moment. December is here again. It almost feels like it never left. Actually, it just doesn't feel like December. I see all the decorations and advertisements and trees, but for some reason, it just doesn't feel like December to me. It doesn't even feel like Thanksgiving just happened two/three days ago. Maybe it's because it hasn't snowed yet-- a real snow, not just a passing flurry that doesn't even stick. Maybe it's because it hasn't really reached ten degrees yet on a daily (or at least weekly) basis. Or maybe, it doesn't feel like December because it doesn't feel as though enough time has passed since the last one. Somehow, I'm just a week away from finals again. Somehow, it's become sweatshirt (well two sweatshirts) weather again. This year has been full of so many things. Maybe that's why it feels like it went so fast. I guess every year is different. By different, I mean every year seems to be shorter than the last, which it isn't (except for leap years, but still, it's only one day). Maybe it's just because time seems shorter with every year you live. 

If that is true, then I should probably live each year like I did this year: to its fullest. 
Things I did this year: admitted I needed help, accepted I needed help, got help, starting living for myself, felt real happiness, felt worth something, started believing in myself, went to California (twice), went to Utah for Sundance, became vice president of film society, became executive producer of TMA, had three internships (GEM, Charter TV3, and National Academy of Television Arts and Sciences), was in three different time zones, opened up my heart, got a boyfriend, pretty much taught a class, turned 21, and learned so many valuable lessons, and so many more things. That's a year done right. 

At the beginning of 2013, I made a new year's resolution that I didn't stick to (write down every happy memory of the year), but that's okay. I also told myself that this year would be my year. You know what? It was. This year, I opened up. I finally started taking the advice I've been giving people the past eight years (probably more) and actually started taking my own advice. This year, I took risks that I haven't in the past, and I learned what it means to actually live for yourself and do what you want. I didn't let anything hold me back. Once I put my mind to it, I did it. That is the best thing I could have ever done for myself. 

How did I get to this from the beginning? I don't really know. 

All I know is this year.. I made this year mine. It went by incredibly fast, but it was mine. In the end, I guess that is really all that matters. 
When I look back on 2013 ten, twenty, thirty years down the road, I won't forget it. Some minor details might be forgotten, but I won't forget this year because this was the year I turned my life around and realized I am ready to follow my dreams and to enjoy my life.

My challenge to you (I haven't done one of these in a while): Take this month to just enjoy. Do something you've wanted to do but have been too scared to do. Go ahead and face your fears. You never know what might happen.

Also, enjoy the last month of 2013.

peace.love.happiness.