I've been thinking a lot about how I wanted to end my blogs about California and the amazing opportunities it gave me. I've been thinking about it so much, that it has actually been just about a month since I left. That went by fast.
Though it went by fast, this past month, so much has happened. With the past month to accept the fact that I am no longer in the sunny state with the internship of my dreams, I have accepted that and am still happy. I know I'll be back next year, and I know I'll miss it here. Uxbridge, Quinnipiac, New England, they'll always have a place in my heart, but California is where I belong, at least for the start of my career.
I still don't really know what to say or even how to sum up the opportunities this summer gave me, not even just career-wise, but how much I've grown in the past year. I started to think happiness was just a thing people made up and put on as a disguise or that it couldn't last for more than a few days at a time, a week if you're lucky. In the past year, I started to work on myself and focus on what really matters to me. I realized I can't be living for everyone else and always putting myself last. I realized my happiness is important, that I'm important. I realized what it means to believe in yourself and to be confident and feel like you're worth something. I realized that you need to be happy on your own before you can be happy with somebody else. Now I am.
As of a couple weeks ago, I have officially started my college dating life (only took three years). I couldn't be happier. Those three years, I wasn't ready to let anybody in, but, slowly, I am letting those walls down.
Right now, it just seems as though everything is falling into place. Everything that's happening, is happening at the right time. Happiness, happiness is a real thing.
peace.love.happiness.
~Lisa
No comments:
Post a Comment